圣诞节的前夕

从以前到现在，我从每段感情中学会生长，学会看清人的真面目，经历过纯纯的，傻傻的初恋，还记得当时连牵手都害羞；也试着曾经疯狂的深爱过，结果伤得遍体鳞伤，是我这辈子最痛恨的一段感情，也是让我变得很坚强的一段感情，让我从此无法轻易相信男人；但然，我也曾经像公主一样，被宠得无法无天，但却是一段天意弄人，有缘无分的感情。

时间逐渐的流逝，我慢慢的看清我自己想要的未来，在我最悲伤的时候，我从每段感情中学会，我没办法靠任何人，就算你说了出来，也只是存粹的分享，只是多一个人担忧，并没有给予多少帮助。于是，每段感情，我都不再抱着任何的期待，也不会有任何的·期望会有什么梦幻的将来，因为我知道这一切都是不实际，没有任何事可以一辈子，没有任何感情是一生一世。

单身也好，有男朋友也好，每一次的季节也是一个人，没什么·特别，我也习惯一个人的生活，不过我会像爸爸一样那么的坚强，一个人也可以过得好好的。加油吧！我要好好为我的将来打算，是时候看清这是现实而不是你所幻想的一切。

爸，我想你了。

爸爸离开以后，我理解了生命中最可怕的不是死亡，而是目睹心爱的人慢慢死去。虽然爸爸过世已一年了，但在我生命中，他始终是那个最重要的人，那个我最尊敬，最仰慕的父亲。身边的朋友已经一个接一个的订婚与结婚，但我妈妈却希望我全心的读书，她视乎对我身边的男人，没一个感到满意。我心想，要是想找一个好像爸爸那样的一个男人，应该不可能了吧。思念，把我们的回忆给锁在那宝盒里。

碎碎念

好久都没有写日记了，又回到这个避风港，小时候，心情不好，也许一个冰淇淋就可以解决，但是，长大以后，我逐渐变得偶尔比较孤僻，不喜欢说大多话，但却喜欢写写心情，听听音乐，因为他们是最真实，也是不会出卖你的好伙伴。 短短的几年里，我的人生却有那么大转变，步入工作的世界以后，成天除了上班，放工，偶尔星期天与朋友聚聚，就没什么特别的事情发生了。老妈每天只懂得催我找个男友。 在我22岁的那一年，是我人生最大的转变，也是我人生最低潮的一年，爸爸不幸得了末期胃癌，在我23岁那年，我抱着他那消瘦的身体，看着他慢慢的睡去，我在他耳边叙述了很多回忆。在他生病的那段日子，我送了他一本书，叫做，’人生解码‘，爸爸曾经告诉我，每个人来到这个世界上，上天都会为他安排一份功课，每一份功课，都是一种考验，一个锻炼，完成了，下辈子就不需要再做同样的功课，没完成的，来生就还需要受同样的考验。他曾笑着对我说，我得到这个病，肯定是上天给我的一份功课，只要我完成了，我就会没事了。我一生中最大的痛苦，莫过于看着我心爱的人，一天比一天焦脆，而我却爱莫能助。那种说不出的心痛，我想没有人可以理解。长那么大，我第一次，看见爸爸痛得在床打滚，流泪。他，在我心目中，是个十分传统的男人，固执，不烂漫，不体贴，但是他拥有一颗善良的心，是个有责任感的大男人。就算做了绕道手术，他还是坚持到店里工作，他曾说过一句让我感到非常心痛的话，他说，’这家店是我的心血，它帮我养活了家里的大大小小，我一定要好好的打理它。‘我哭了，我心想，’爸，你老了，是应该享福了，都怪我还小，无法工作，为你减轻负担。‘也就因此，我决定20岁毕业后，靠自己工作存钱读大学。到英国·升学，是我小时候的梦想，但我总觉得这梦想很遥远。所以我不曾抱着太大的期待。失去爸爸的那一刻，我放弃了我所有的梦想，并不是我想变得堕落，而是我知道妈妈需要我们，家里需要更多开销。要不是姐姐一而再的鼓励，妈妈不断的支持，今天的我不会在英国。爸爸过失后，我的人生有着很大变化。。

我开始喜欢喝咖啡，一天都至少要喝1杯，又是一天喝4杯，因为，它让我想起爱喝咖啡的爸爸。

我学会乐观的接受一切，任何时刻，我都会提醒自己要微笑的过日子，因为人生短暂，要是微笑可以带来欢乐，为何不快乐的过人生，爸爸曾帮我擦干眼泪，他说，看见我们为他流泪，让他感到心痛，于是在他生病的期间，我最害怕在面前流泪。当你的人生别无选择，坚强与勇敢的往前看将会是你唯一的路。

如今，在英国呆了一年，在我的露出中，虽然陆陆续续有各式各样的人出现，让我看清这世界的真面目。在你生命里出现的每一个人，都会是一个故事，但至于是美好结局，又或是悲剧收场，其实大家都心知肚明，我知道做人需要有三个的面孔的道理，一个用来面对工作伙伴，一个用来对待朋友亲人，而最真诚的自己，就是最后那一个面具，心里想说的一切，永远往里面吐，心事本来就不应该与人分享。我想我还需要再坚强些，学会克制那珍贵的泪水。

Time Flying!!!

It has been quite sometime I neglected my blog! I have to admit that I'm a lazy pig and really got no time to blog much about my life. *sorry* Oh well, I believe that there is no one out there interested in knowing how do I do so far. I'm neither a celebrity nor a super chio bu model, what I live in, it's just a simple life, a boring and dull life~~ Who cares?!?! I just want to entertain myself and kill my time. Time flying and I'm officially 22 years old this year!! I have been started to work in hospital one year ago, ever since I stepped into my work life, I become completely lifeless. Everyday my life just keep repeating, life a cycle. day time, I wake up at 530am, start to work at 8am, end at 530pm, reach home at 630pm, sleep at 10pm. nothing much to share with you guys. Recently, I have been travelling to JB for my orthodontic braces. I found my dentist, Dr. Tee thru my friend. Dr. Tee CH is a friendly & caring dentist. His clinic is at Taman Sentosa, which is quite near to Singapore custom. I have to say that he is a super Tee because he alone can handle 5 patients at the same time, he just hop into each cabin and consult all his patient by himself. Before I met him, I have been searching my dentist thru online because I don't want to have my braces done in Singapore because its f**king expensive. My friend paid 5k SGD for her braces while my colleague paid 4k SGD for hers. That's crazy!! I got mine at RM7k~ some of my friends said,' STUPID!! that seems no big different compare to you have it in Singapore!Oh well, whatever!! I don't care~~ The first day I have my braces on, my face got swollen like one fish ball. HAHAHA I couldn't eat and sleep well. Eventually I took mc from work and went to GP to get super powerful pain killer!! After 4 days, I started to eat biscuit and cracker~ HAHAHA There is no way anyone can stop me from craving with all those rubbish junk food. Three weeks after that, my dentist started to extract the extra tooth, I have to say that the procedure is super fast and its PAINLESS!!! I didnt feel anything at all, and surprisingly, I still have my normal meal as usual. This is my first meal after I extracted my tooth!!! *slurp* I'm looking forward for the day I take off my braces~ Lastly, one cheeky smile of me with my pink braces!!! and my two pretty besties !!!

My SP school life

I joined my Sp life when I was 18years old. Time passed like the speed of light,I have been staying in Sg for three years. I am not a active sport girl in my school, I joined fencing club yet I have skipped my training for numberless of time. I dont have much friends in school too because I am a typical otaku.. I spend most of my time at home,watching anime,listen songs and...nothing else.. but I have a group of besties in my Sg life~they are my 3cs' classmates. (Chio,Cute & Crazy)


Cynthia,JiaNi & I are my forever cam-whore partner~& I met Ni zi since my first year in my SP school life~


Some people said we look like twin~


She is my twinie~ Cyn Lu~ <3


I love all the unglam poses~and Cyn & Ni are my forever besties in class..


Hilly is a mixed blood baby girl~Can you all tell?Her mother is from Pakistan & Her grandpa is... (Her blood group is kinda complicated) Check out her fashion online blogshop on livejournal [ http://rocketonmars.livejournal.com/ ] or facebook (RocketonMars Rom) [ http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002187670596&sk=wall ] She is selling lot of nice clothes and cute bags~


Katie aka my wife in school~ She stay near to my house area and her mother can cook super nice Burmese cuisine~ we went to UK attachment together..and this picture was took in the flight~


SekShi aka Sekky is the most great person in the world..She is in my extinction friend list~ She is toooooooooooooooo NICE to be truth~ 够义气bestie~


Mei Mei,the one who stood beside me in this picture~ She is the tallest girl in my class~ps. model body height.She has a very very unique laughter~


Sayyun,the one who is sandwich between Ni zi and Me~She is the most quiet girl in my class~and also a forever diet girl~


I will end my blog with this group photo which took on sekky's sweet 20th birthday <3

---------------------- F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P.F.O.R.E.V.E.R -----------------------

Konichiwa!! Curly Hair

It been long time I didnt visit my blog =)
So,today I decided to blog about my recent new hairstyle..I'm bored with my long and black straight hair..therefore,i decided to perm my hair. At first,I was quite worried for the outcome of perming. I'm scare that I looks extremely awful with curly hair..eventually,i decided to give it a shot! I bought voucher via internet,the saloon that I chosen is called HAIR GROOM. It's a new saloon at Pudu area in Kuala Lumpur.At first,they helped me to wash my hair before to get my hair cut.Well,this part wasnt that important because this was my first time to perm my hair so I was quite surprising with the way they curl my hair. I chose digital perm as my hairstylist said the curl will looks more natural and nicer.



This photo was took by my cousin. I looked like some mad scientist in this photo.HAHAHA The wires and all the curlers were damn heavy.Honestly,my neck was aching..HAHAHA



TADA!!! This is the result for my new hairstyle!!

After I washed my hair..This is what I got~ although it isnt that curly anymore but I love it!! because it looks very natural HAHAHA





Before and After of me~So far,I never think of dye my hair,because I love my black hair loads HAHAHA

My all time favourate hair care product

Hi,guys.Its time to blog again!Today I'm going to share with everyone about my black hair care tips. Being a girl is quite troublesome,we have to look out for our diet,keep track of the fashion sense as well as watch out our skin condition..though that I enjoy being a girl~well,i should stop bull-shitting and let set the ball rolling!!!
Recently,I been using this hair product called K2 professional.



It is awesome!!This product is manufacture in Malaysia but the main ingredients are from Japan.The big bottle one is the vitamin spray that help you to avoid tangle at the end of hair.I used it all the time after I have washed my hair. After that,I will use the serum to oil my hair to reduce dryness of my hair.I think it is better to oil your hair right after you have washed your hair,because your hair still moist and it's more easy for the adsorption of your hair care products. It shall give you a really smooth silky and shiny hair texture. The best thing is they smell very nice.I believe everyone love something that smell nice.Or maybe someone got special smell sensor that love to smell something like hell stink trash?we never know..HAHA


I doubt that do you guys spot the different of my hair texture or not..looks like makes no different uh?The picture quality sucks that why cant really see the big contrast.But trust me!!!it really works!!

Besides that,I rarely used hot water to rinse my hair.I prefer using warm water or cool water to wash my hair because hot water can dry and irritate the scalp.
Lastly,a healthier lifestyle will result in healthier hair~So start of your healthy lifestyle by today ^^ ps. The above tips are just my personal experiences. Wish you all have a nice day & all the best =)