圣诞节的前夕

从以前到现在，我从每段感情中学会生长，学会看清人的真面目，经历过纯纯的，傻傻的初恋，还记得当时连牵手都害羞；也试着曾经疯狂的深爱过，结果伤得遍体鳞伤，是我这辈子最痛恨的一段感情，也是让我变得很坚强的一段感情，让我从此无法轻易相信男人；但然，我也曾经像公主一样，被宠得无法无天，但却是一段天意弄人，有缘无分的感情。

时间逐渐的流逝，我慢慢的看清我自己想要的未来，在我最悲伤的时候，我从每段感情中学会，我没办法靠任何人，就算你说了出来，也只是存粹的分享，只是多一个人担忧，并没有给予多少帮助。于是，每段感情，我都不再抱着任何的期待，也不会有任何的·期望会有什么梦幻的将来，因为我知道这一切都是不实际，没有任何事可以一辈子，没有任何感情是一生一世。

单身也好，有男朋友也好，每一次的季节也是一个人，没什么·特别，我也习惯一个人的生活，不过我会像爸爸一样那么的坚强，一个人也可以过得好好的。加油吧！我要好好为我的将来打算，是时候看清这是现实而不是你所幻想的一切。

爸，我想你了。

爸爸离开以后，我理解了生命中最可怕的不是死亡，而是目睹心爱的人慢慢死去。虽然爸爸过世已一年了，但在我生命中，他始终是那个最重要的人，那个我最尊敬，最仰慕的父亲。身边的朋友已经一个接一个的订婚与结婚，但我妈妈却希望我全心的读书，她视乎对我身边的男人，没一个感到满意。我心想，要是想找一个好像爸爸那样的一个男人，应该不可能了吧。思念，把我们的回忆给锁在那宝盒里。

碎碎念

好久都没有写日记了，又回到这个避风港，小时候，心情不好，也许一个冰淇淋就可以解决，但是，长大以后，我逐渐变得偶尔比较孤僻，不喜欢说大多话，但却喜欢写写心情，听听音乐，因为他们是最真实，也是不会出卖你的好伙伴。 短短的几年里，我的人生却有那么大转变，步入工作的世界以后，成天除了上班，放工，偶尔星期天与朋友聚聚，就没什么特别的事情发生了。老妈每天只懂得催我找个男友。 在我22岁的那一年，是我人生最大的转变，也是我人生最低潮的一年，爸爸不幸得了末期胃癌，在我23岁那年，我抱着他那消瘦的身体，看着他慢慢的睡去，我在他耳边叙述了很多回忆。在他生病的那段日子，我送了他一本书，叫做，’人生解码‘，爸爸曾经告诉我，每个人来到这个世界上，上天都会为他安排一份功课，每一份功课，都是一种考验，一个锻炼，完成了，下辈子就不需要再做同样的功课，没完成的，来生就还需要受同样的考验。他曾笑着对我说，我得到这个病，肯定是上天给我的一份功课，只要我完成了，我就会没事了。我一生中最大的痛苦，莫过于看着我心爱的人，一天比一天焦脆，而我却爱莫能助。那种说不出的心痛，我想没有人可以理解。长那么大，我第一次，看见爸爸痛得在床打滚，流泪。他，在我心目中，是个十分传统的男人，固执，不烂漫，不体贴，但是他拥有一颗善良的心，是个有责任感的大男人。就算做了绕道手术，他还是坚持到店里工作，他曾说过一句让我感到非常心痛的话，他说，’这家店是我的心血，它帮我养活了家里的大大小小，我一定要好好的打理它。‘我哭了，我心想，’爸，你老了，是应该享福了，都怪我还小，无法工作，为你减轻负担。‘也就因此，我决定20岁毕业后，靠自己工作存钱读大学。到英国·升学，是我小时候的梦想，但我总觉得这梦想很遥远。所以我不曾抱着太大的期待。失去爸爸的那一刻，我放弃了我所有的梦想，并不是我想变得堕落，而是我知道妈妈需要我们，家里需要更多开销。要不是姐姐一而再的鼓励，妈妈不断的支持，今天的我不会在英国。爸爸过失后，我的人生有着很大变化。。

我开始喜欢喝咖啡，一天都至少要喝1杯，又是一天喝4杯，因为，它让我想起爱喝咖啡的爸爸。

我学会乐观的接受一切，任何时刻，我都会提醒自己要微笑的过日子，因为人生短暂，要是微笑可以带来欢乐，为何不快乐的过人生，爸爸曾帮我擦干眼泪，他说，看见我们为他流泪，让他感到心痛，于是在他生病的期间，我最害怕在面前流泪。当你的人生别无选择，坚强与勇敢的往前看将会是你唯一的路。

如今，在英国呆了一年，在我的露出中，虽然陆陆续续有各式各样的人出现，让我看清这世界的真面目。在你生命里出现的每一个人，都会是一个故事，但至于是美好结局，又或是悲剧收场，其实大家都心知肚明，我知道做人需要有三个的面孔的道理，一个用来面对工作伙伴，一个用来对待朋友亲人，而最真诚的自己，就是最后那一个面具，心里想说的一切，永远往里面吐，心事本来就不应该与人分享。我想我还需要再坚强些，学会克制那珍贵的泪水。

Time Flying!!!

It has been quite sometime I neglected my blog! I have to admit that I'm a lazy pig and really got no time to blog much about my life. *sorry* Oh well, I believe that there is no one out there interested in knowing how do I do so far. I'm neither a celebrity nor a super chio bu model, what I live in, it's just a simple life, a boring and dull life~~ Who cares?!?! I just want to entertain myself and kill my time. Time flying and I'm officially 22 years old this year!! I have been started to work in hospital one year ago, ever since I stepped into my work life, I become completely lifeless. Everyday my life just keep repeating, life a cycle. day time, I wake up at 530am, start to work at 8am, end at 530pm, reach home at 630pm, sleep at 10pm. nothing much to share with you guys. Recently, I have been travelling to JB for my orthodontic braces. I found my dentist, Dr. Tee thru my friend. Dr. Tee CH is a friendly & caring dentist. His clinic is at Taman Sentosa, which is quite near to Singapore custom. I have to say that he is a super Tee because he alone can handle 5 patients at the same time, he just hop into each cabin and consult all his patient by himself. Before I met him, I have been searching my dentist thru online because I don't want to have my braces done in Singapore because its f**king expensive. My friend paid 5k SGD for her braces while my colleague paid 4k SGD for hers. That's crazy!! I got mine at RM7k~ some of my friends said,' STUPID!! that seems no big different compare to you have it in Singapore!Oh well, whatever!! I don't care~~ The first day I have my braces on, my face got swollen like one fish ball. HAHAHA I couldn't eat and sleep well. Eventually I took mc from work and went to GP to get super powerful pain killer!! After 4 days, I started to eat biscuit and cracker~ HAHAHA There is no way anyone can stop me from craving with all those rubbish junk food. Three weeks after that, my dentist started to extract the extra tooth, I have to say that the procedure is super fast and its PAINLESS!!! I didnt feel anything at all, and surprisingly, I still have my normal meal as usual. This is my first meal after I extracted my tooth!!! *slurp* I'm looking forward for the day I take off my braces~ Lastly, one cheeky smile of me with my pink braces!!! and my two pretty besties !!!

My SP school life

I joined my Sp life when I was 18years old. Time passed like the speed of light,I have been staying in Sg for three years. I am not a active sport girl in my school, I joined fencing club yet I have skipped my training for numberless of time. I dont have much friends in school too because I am a typical otaku.. I spend most of my time at home,watching anime,listen songs and...nothing else.. but I have a group of besties in my Sg life~they are my 3cs' classmates. (Chio,Cute & Crazy)


Cynthia,JiaNi & I are my forever cam-whore partner~& I met Ni zi since my first year in my SP school life~


Some people said we look like twin~


She is my twinie~ Cyn Lu~ <3


I love all the unglam poses~and Cyn & Ni are my forever besties in class..


Hilly is a mixed blood baby girl~Can you all tell?Her mother is from Pakistan & Her grandpa is... (Her blood group is kinda complicated) Check out her fashion online blogshop on livejournal [ http://rocketonmars.livejournal.com/ ] or facebook (RocketonMars Rom) [ http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002187670596&sk=wall ] She is selling lot of nice clothes and cute bags~


Katie aka my wife in school~ She stay near to my house area and her mother can cook super nice Burmese cuisine~ we went to UK attachment together..and this picture was took in the flight~


SekShi aka Sekky is the most great person in the world..She is in my extinction friend list~ She is toooooooooooooooo NICE to be truth~ 够义气bestie~


Mei Mei,the one who stood beside me in this picture~ She is the tallest girl in my class~ps. model body height.She has a very very unique laughter~


Sayyun,the one who is sandwich between Ni zi and Me~She is the most quiet girl in my class~and also a forever diet girl~


I will end my blog with this group photo which took on sekky's sweet 20th birthday <3

---------------------- F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P.F.O.R.E.V.E.R -----------------------

Konichiwa!! Curly Hair

It been long time I didnt visit my blog =)
So,today I decided to blog about my recent new hairstyle..I'm bored with my long and black straight hair..therefore,i decided to perm my hair. At first,I was quite worried for the outcome of perming. I'm scare that I looks extremely awful with curly hair..eventually,i decided to give it a shot! I bought voucher via internet,the saloon that I chosen is called HAIR GROOM. It's a new saloon at Pudu area in Kuala Lumpur.At first,they helped me to wash my hair before to get my hair cut.Well,this part wasnt that important because this was my first time to perm my hair so I was quite surprising with the way they curl my hair. I chose digital perm as my hairstylist said the curl will looks more natural and nicer.



This photo was took by my cousin. I looked like some mad scientist in this photo.HAHAHA The wires and all the curlers were damn heavy.Honestly,my neck was aching..HAHAHA



TADA!!! This is the result for my new hairstyle!!

After I washed my hair..This is what I got~ although it isnt that curly anymore but I love it!! because it looks very natural HAHAHA





Before and After of me~So far,I never think of dye my hair,because I love my black hair loads HAHAHA

My all time favourate hair care product

Hi,guys.Its time to blog again!Today I'm going to share with everyone about my black hair care tips. Being a girl is quite troublesome,we have to look out for our diet,keep track of the fashion sense as well as watch out our skin condition..though that I enjoy being a girl~well,i should stop bull-shitting and let set the ball rolling!!!
Recently,I been using this hair product called K2 professional.



It is awesome!!This product is manufacture in Malaysia but the main ingredients are from Japan.The big bottle one is the vitamin spray that help you to avoid tangle at the end of hair.I used it all the time after I have washed my hair. After that,I will use the serum to oil my hair to reduce dryness of my hair.I think it is better to oil your hair right after you have washed your hair,because your hair still moist and it's more easy for the adsorption of your hair care products. It shall give you a really smooth silky and shiny hair texture. The best thing is they smell very nice.I believe everyone love something that smell nice.Or maybe someone got special smell sensor that love to smell something like hell stink trash?we never know..HAHA


I doubt that do you guys spot the different of my hair texture or not..looks like makes no different uh?The picture quality sucks that why cant really see the big contrast.But trust me!!!it really works!!

Besides that,I rarely used hot water to rinse my hair.I prefer using warm water or cool water to wash my hair because hot water can dry and irritate the scalp.
Lastly,a healthier lifestyle will result in healthier hair~So start of your healthy lifestyle by today ^^ ps. The above tips are just my personal experiences. Wish you all have a nice day & all the best =)

Consequence of color lenses that I have experienced

I think lot of girls wish to own one pair of dolly looked eyes,so am I too~◕‿◕
Therefore,I love to wear contact lenses as it makes my pupils look bigger and have the effect of cute dolly looked.Last Friday,when I was having presentation in my class,suddenly I just felt the projector light was so bright til I can't bear to open my eyes.Therefore,I decided to take off my color lenses as I thought it could be due to the dryness of my eyes. But thing went worse after I took off my lenses,my eyes were hurt like hell,both of my eyes were totally like on fire,it was freaking pain that I cant even open my eyes at all.[/Y△\] My eyes just kept tearing non-stop and I really have lost my mood for that whole day.All I wish was to go home as soon as possible.After the lecture class,both of my eyes already started swollen with no reason.Therefore,I have no choice that I need to take cab.It was totally not my day because that time was peak hour time,my friend and I took couple of minutes to get the cab and obviously we have to pay extra money for the peak hour charge.(｡>д<)ARGH!!

When reached home,the first thing I did was clean my face and took a rest.I cant even sleep very well as my eyes were damn pain!! So I decided to take two panadol in one shot of time and guess wad?I slept all the way from 6pm til the next morning.But I did woke up around 12am++ and I sat at the living room cried nonstop.I was so scared that I will turn blind as I thought everything will get better after I took 6hours bed rest,yet my eyes still hardly to open and they were swollen like goldfish's eyes and I have blur vision.After crying for few minutes,I went to bed again >< wad a silly girl!!


This was the second day of my goldfish eyes.It was damn swollen and I cant even look into light.So except sleep,I cant do other stuff at all.

My aunt brought me to family clinic and that was Saturday night.The doctor was so worried about my condition so she wrote a letter and admitted me to A&E department.That night,I went to see three doctors.In NUH,doctor dropped the anaesthesia in my eyes and helped me did the test to ensure that there is no infection and cornea ulcer.After that,another doctor helped to scan my eyes by using the eyes scanner machine.Doctor confirmed that there is no ulcer and infection,it was all due to the dryness of eyes that cause by my color lenses and I have accidentally hurt my eyes the moment I tried to remove my lenses.So she prescript me a eyes drop antibiotic,artificial tear drop and ophthalmic ointment. The ointment thingy is the most disgusting thing I hate the most.You have to squeeze the yellow creamy gel into your eyes and that will blur your vision.Trust me,the feeling is damn sucks!!as u can feel there is something stuck in your eyes and poking ur eyes while u close ur eyes.The next day,u can even feel ur eyes are stick together with glue..


This is the ointment that Im using right now. Although it doesnt make u feel good after u apply it but it really helped to reduce my swollen eyes and sort of like 'lubricated' my dry eyes. HAHA

After few days of treatment,this is how my eyes look like [><]

(ﾉω-ヾ)The progression of the treatment.


So now I have to stop wearing color lenses for a period of time..This is a pretty goooood lesson for me uh!! HAHA Cam whore without color lenses after 6days of torturing treatment~ *peace*

可愛い!!Symbols for Your Facebook Wall!!

Well,today Im going to copy and paste all the cute symbols in my blog.I love to comment things and add some cute symbols or expressions in my comment box.So most of the times,i used to google search for those cute symbols and added them when i was commenting on people status or my status in facebook. HAHA kinda lame uh? So now,I think this could be the fastest way for me to copy and paste all my cute expression symbols on my facebook wall..TEEHEE..大好き~ ♥

Random cute symbols
①②③④⑤⑥⑦⑧⑨⑩⑪⑫
⑬⑭⑮⑯⑰⑱⑲⑳
ⒶⒷⒸⒹⒺⒻⒼⒽⒾⒿⓀⓁ
ⓂⓃⓄⓅⓆⓇⓈⓉⓊⓋⓌⓍ
ⓎⓏⓐⓑⓒⓓⓔⓕⓖⓗⓘⓙⓚ
ⓛⓜⓝⓞⓟⓠⓡⓢⓣⓤⓥⓦⓧⓨⓩ
◯☁☂☃☄★☆☇☈☉☊☌♕
☰✥✏❘❁✿✽✦✖✘❒❏✪
❀❁❂❄❀✼❜✹✟❡❢❣❤❥
❦❶❷❸❹❺❻❼❽❾❿➳➵➶
➷➸➹➺➻➼➽➾

My favourate symbols
✿ （*｀・_ゝ・）ノ └(￣▽￣*) (o´c_,｀o) （*´・д・｀） (ｏゝ∀･) (*´・ェ・)っ.゜+。★ (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ (ξ・з・)ξ (・Ω・)ﾉ (｡Ф∀Ф｡)o (ﾉω-ヾ) (ゝω´･)b Ｕ,,･ω･) ( 'Θ') (*ФωФ)ゞ
*.:｡✿*ﾟ‘ﾟ･✿.｡.:* *.:｡✿*ﾟ’ﾟ･✿.｡.:* *.:｡✿*ﾟ¨ﾟ✎･ ✿.｡.:* *.:｡✿*ﾟ¨ﾟ✎･✿.｡.:*゜*゜Ｙ⌒Ｙ｡+ﾟ☆ﾟ+｡Ｙ⌒Ｙ゜*゜ ☆•:*´¨`*:•..•:*´¨`*:•.☆ .。+゜*☆⌒Ｙ⌒Ｙ⌒Ｙ⌒☆*゜+。.。:.*.ﾟ ﾟ¨ﾟﾟ･*:..｡o○☆ﾟ+｡
｡◕‿◕｡(◡‿◡✿) (◕‿◕✿)✖‿✖ (◕〝◕) ◕‿-｡~.~ «-(¯`v´¯)«-- ..·.¸¸·´¯`·.¸¸.ஐ ...¤¸¸.·´¯`·.¸·.>>--» [[ o(‧'''‧)o ◐ ◑(‧'''‧)o εїз ⓛⓞⓥⓔ ∞Ψ ∑ ⌒
【*´⊥'】 (=ﾟωﾟ) (;ﾉﾟД
yωy*) (´ゝз･) (｡･ω･｡) (｡>д<) (･ｃ_,･｡) (っ>ω<)っ (_ _。) (｀･皿･´) ( -`д´-) (ﾟロﾟ;) (;ﾟ曲ﾟ) (=' . '=) (='o'=)

The domo expressions HAHA
⊙▂⊙　⊙０⊙　⊙︿⊙　⊙ω⊙　⊙﹏⊙　⊙△⊙　⊙▽⊙ ˋ▂ˊ　ˋ０ˊ　ˋ︿ˊ　ˋωˊ　ˋ﹏ˊ　ˋ△ˊ　ˋ▽ˊˇ▂ˇ　ˇ０ˇ　ˇ︿ˇ　ˇωˇ　ˇ﹏ˇ　　ˇ△ˇ　ˇ▽˙▂˙　˙０˙　˙︿˙　˙ω˙　˙﹏˙　˙△˙　˙▽˙

Some RANDOM cute shapes
▩ ◘ ◙ ▓ ▒ ░ Café № ＠ ㊣ ™ ℡ 凸 の ๑۞๑ ๑۩ﺴ ﺴ۩๑o(‧'''‧)o ❆ⓔ べ ☀ ☼ ☜ ☞ ⊙® ◈ ♦ ◊ ◦ ◇ ◆ εїз
☀☁☂☃☄★☆☇☊☋☌☎☏☸♓♕♖♗♘♙♚♛♜♝♞♟♠♡♢♣♥♧♩♫♬♭♮♯✁✂✃✄✆✈:
✎ ✟ஐ ≈ ๑۩۩.. ..۩۩๑๑۩۞۩๑ ✲
♂ ♀ ♥ ♡ ☜ ☞ ☎ ☏ ⊙ ◎ ☺ ☻ ► ◄ ▧ ▨ ♨ ◐ ◑ ↔ ↕ ▪ ▫ ☼ ♦ ▀ ▄ █ ▌ ▐ ░ ▒▬ ♦ ◊ ◦ ☼ ♠ ♣ ▣ ▤ ▥ ▦ ▩ ◘ ◙ ◈ ♫ ♬ ♪ ♩ ♭ ♪ の ☆ → あ ぃ ￡ ❤ ｡◕‿◕｡
๑۩۞۩๑ ♟ ☼ ☀ o O ＃ 【】ψ▓ ► ◄ ▒ ░ ♀♂√ ╮╭ ╯╰ ァ ┱ ┲ ☆ ★ ♫ ♬

Numbers:
❶❷❸❹❺❻❼❽❾❿① ② ③ ④ ⑤ ⑥ ⑦ ⑧ ⑨ ⑩ ⑪ ⑫ ⑬ ⑭ ⑮ ⑯ ⑰ ⑱ ⑲ ⑳ ⓐ ⓑ ⓒ ⓓ ⓔ ⓕ ⓖ ⓗⓘ ⓙ ⓚ ⓛ ⓜⓝ ⓞ ⓟ ⓠ ⓡ ⓢ ⓣ ⓤ ⓥ ⓦ ⓧ ⓨ ⓩ

The funny expressions:
ﾟヽ(｡･c_,･｡)ﾉ)))｡ …(*゜～｀*)｡O○ ☆【 >Д＜;】ﾉ｡оO (づ￣ ³￣)づ~~♡ (●*∩_∩*●)(｡◕‿◕｡) o(‧'''‧)o (◕‿◕❀)(◡‿◡❀)●(‧'''‧)

It's not too late to say I Love You

Today,I watched a video from facebook..The story was about how the children abandoned or neglected their parents,and I realized that those kind of story has the same ending.It sure will end up their parents passed away and they cried like SHIT and felt so regret for what they had done.Now,here comes my point!!What is the point he or she crying in the end of the story?Don't you ever use your asshole brain to think for your attitude when your love one is still alive?Don't you f**king cry like shit and apologize when you did something that hurt your parent when they are still alive?Why you want to give yourself a shot to feel regret for what you had done?I'm so sorry,I just feel so pissed after I watched that stupid dumb asshole video.My emotion just lost control and shot to the peak of my head!!{{{(>_<)}}}
I left my home town when I was 18.That was my first time to stay so far away from my parent.Maybe you might feel that I behave like a little girl or baby girl but I admitted that I cried like a lost child in the train.It been two years I never have my reunion dinner with my family during Chinese New Year because my exam schedule always happen in the period of Lunar New Year so I have no choice and need to stay in Sg.Although I got the chance to spend my CNY with my relative in Sg but I really miss my family loads during such a meaningful and important festival.I bet that there are more people worse than me at outside there,they might be dont even have a single chance to celebrate CNY at all.Some even never ever have a warm reunion dinner in their life at all and for that,I'm so sorry.Believe me or not,I can talk with my mother in phone for one hour nonstop.Incredible,isn't it?I also dont know how can I be so talkative especially having conversation with my mum.My friends find it very unbelievable because they always thought that I was talking with my friend in the phone yet that person is actually my mother. (●*∩_∩*●)
I feel so glad that I have a warm and sweet family.That is the biggest gift I got it from the God.I trust that you can make it too..all you need to do is just pick up your phone and dial your house number.Learn to make friend with your parent,love and care about them.Dont be afraid to say I love you or I miss you to your parent.Learn to appreciate and be thoughtful,you can make the different.xoxo

Hey,Dad!Mum! Look at me!!! I LOVE YOU!! MUACKSZ~
------------------------(づ￣ ³￣)づ~~♡ ~~~~ (*^ -^*)-(¯`v´¯)--------------------------

Four Birds Personality Test

Do you know who are you?Do you even think about which category of personality that u fall under?If one day,someone ask you that what is your personality?what would you answer?Yesterday,my lecturer played a personality test with all of us,the test title is called what kind of birds are you?There are owl,eagle,dove and peacock =)and guess what?I'm an owl..LOL

Actually I'm quite happy with the result because it really makes sense and I can't believe that it able to describe all my personality so precisely.The feeling is so magical til I cant tell in words.

I don't know why I am writing all about these in my blog now.Maybe I just feel like sharing this personality test to all of my friends or maybe I just want to spend part of my time speak out something.Seriously,when I was at home and my parent and aunt never call me,I can zip up my mouth for one whole day,without speak out one word..Ops,I should stop moaning at here..Let's move to the result of the test..

Eagle:Dominant leader,controller,direct,orientated toward productivity and goals.
They are independent,fast,competitive,ambitious,determined and influential.

Owl:The wise owl,the intellectual,analytical,systematic problem solvers,concerned with the facts,process and perfection.They are logical,meticulous,practical,conservative,formal,efficient,structured.

Dove:Sensitive dove,unassertive,warm,reliable,softhearted,avoids risjs,people ortientated.They are friendly,patient,unassuming,loyal,cooperative,kind,caring and emotional.ps.Most of the girls fall into this category <3

Peacock:They are social butterfly,spontaneous,people-people,avoids facts and discipline,idea people,delightful and persuasive.They are confident,expressive,animated,flamboyant,outgoing and adventurous.

So,which bird type are you?You can try the test out thru google search for bird symbols personality test.All the best ^^

Ps.Those description is copy from the result that given by my lecturer.I tried to change my word alignment after I received my friend's comment..hope this post will looks better than the previous one =)

♥ wishes for 2011 ♥

2011 is arrived!! I believe that all of us got our new plan for our new life..for instance some might decided that this year he is going to propose to his beloved girl friend,some choose to give up all the awful or painful memories in the pass and start his or her new life,some wish to work harder than last time and got his or her great achievement in this year..while I do have my wishes too
Miyuki's wishes:
♥. I want to take up two part time jobs..and Im going for my interview session later.It's a server position in a italian restaurant and I wishes myself good luck.ps.May God bless me later =)(9/1/2011)
♥. I want stop playing and wasting my time on facebook and online chit chat.I believe that Im doing it very well,my determination is still persisting..
♥. I want to change my handphone to either iphone,sony xperia,window phone or any phone that I find it's nice.This wishes still cannot exist because my contract only end in May.. =(
♥. I want to lost 5kg more in this year..well,it's not tough at all since I still losing my appetite for eating..
♥. I will stop eating subway bread now..the reason:I dont like to eat subway bread anymore.....
♥. I wishes I will be happier than my previous year..I cant really control this wishes cause sometime it's hard to control one's feeling..LOL
♥. I wishes I will have an unforgettable birthday this year..ps. T.T getting older =(
♥. I must learn to open my eyes wide and be more aware when I meet new friend in this year..
♥. I wishes my life is full with a lot of works,part-time jobs and mountain of assignment..the reason:i also dont know hahaha
♥. I wishes I got more pocket money to buy the stuff I want and do the thing I want to do..like clothes,make-up stuff,skin care products,books and ....
♥. I want my hair grow longer and I want CHANGE MY HAIRSTYLE..since last year,I been saying this yet my hairstyle still never change..
♥. It's 20 years old now,I wishes I got my chance to start travel around the world!! TEEHEE
♥. I should learn to appreciate what I having right now and put more effort on it..hold it tight and love it more and more....ps..it refers to..?my pet?my books?my studies?it's a secret..=)
Hmm..looks like I have written a lot of my wishes at here..do you have your wishes too?what you are waiting for?write it out and start to roll the ball and make your wishes come trueeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Good luck!!Wish all my friends all the best as well as to my family =) ps.I think I will add somemore wishes when they got into my mind ^^ ops,and I got new japanese name thru japanese name translator and I find it quite nice either hehe

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!PEOPLE~

A staircases life

Nowadays,we will always think that,in our life,we should always look forward and fight for our future,but sometime,when you slow down your footstep and look back what had you done,you might discover something special =)
This is the story about a staircase life..
Long long time ago,there was one pair of couple,they live at 80th floor.One day,they went for a jog,when they reached home,they realised the building was ran out of electricity,they carried loads of stuff and sweat like a dog,so they actually rushing back home for shower.Therefore,the wife suggested that they took the stairs and no need to wait for the lift.Well,the husband also agree with it.In the end,both of them took the staircases.But when reach 20th floor,the husband suggested that they leave their stuff at there and when everything is back to normal,they just take the lift and go down to get back their stuff.The wife smile and agree with her husband,hence they took out everything and left it at 20th floor.After that,they continued to walk the staircases,but at the moment they reached 40th floor,they already exhausted and there were still 40 more floor to go..and they started to blame on each other and quarrel..Slowly,they reached 60th floor.At that moment,they were completely enervated and dont even have the energy to quarrel anymore..So the husband said.'let's stoped blaming on each other and continue walked for the last 20 floors.'..Eventually,they reached their home.Suddenly,the wife realised that she had left the key in her haversack that they left it at 20th floor.
Some people said that this story is actually describing our life.Before we reach age 20,we all are live in the world that protected by our parents and work hard to fullfill our parents' and teachers' hope,it's just like carrying a big and heavy haversack.After 20years old,we are set free and we start to enjoy our life.But when the moment we reach 40 years old,we were mutters that life is sucks,we start to moan that everything in our life,for instance,life,work,family,working partner or place,salary etc.Till we reach age 60,we start to regret what had we done in our pass..therefore,we start to console ourself,stop complaining about life and learn to appreciate what we own.By the time we reach 80 years old,it seem like we already walk til the end of the bridge,we start to look back our life and realise that we never accomplish our dream and it still stuck at the age we were 20years old.
The moral value of this story is..we should learn to achieve our dreams so that we wouldnt remorse when we come to the end of our life =)
So,buck up!!and learn to appreciate every moments that u spend in ur life <3

Dear suicide

This few days,a lot of people trying to post emo status on fb,the worst thing is,someone even posted status on fb before he commited suicide.I just realised this is the new way that fb freak to leave the world.Fb not only allow us to play game,meet new friend,advertising product,it also let the people tell their last word to the whole world,even african,mexican,egyptian can know the news of someone die in asian country. isit that sounds very good?Besides,a lot of youngsters think that their boy friend and girl friend is the only precious diamond in this world,without each party,their world turn into hell..I dont see what is point at here?do u all still staying in a primitive world?HELLO,adam and eve had created a lot of human in this world.dont u see what is the point they do so?It's because they know everyday facing the same person,your life gonna be dull,so they wish human being know how to make their choices. Oh well,I really marvel that they got the gut to die haha well,i admit that I dont know what is in their mind when they came to the last moment,yet I dont really care too..I only know how valuable is the life.Girls,boys,if u happened to step in hospital,please open your eyes wide,as wide or big as u can,open until u able to tear off your eyelid which is the best one,and go to the intensive care unit(ICU) look at all those half dying patients on bed,thousand of tubing poking into their skin,cant even shit and pee like a normal people,eating thru nasogastric,moaning for pain all the times,and the most ironic is they are still struggling to fight with the demon and you are trying to give up life.Before u die,ask yourself,am i the most unlucky person in the world?what is the biggest impact that i faced in my life?isit cancer,bankrupt,going to attack by alien,or hunted by jigsaw or cold-blooded murderer..haha I really dont see why some people can cut off the life string just because of being dumped by someone,it's such a BABY BEHAVIOUR,like a baby will cry like crazy when they are hungry or just pop in their napkin.If u are standing on the top of the building now,preparing to jump down,I wish you all the best and take this as the last compliment that I leave for you,"YOU ARE THE WORLD MOST 'BRAVE' AND ZERO IQ AND EQ PERSON' good-bye <3 TEEHEE!!


ps. JOIN FaceBook,BEFORE U DIE!!NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! *My sienz face!*

The last word

This was a story that I heard from a hong kong actress..
No one can live forever in this world because one day,maybe you or me might say good-bye with the earth and go to another world.So,have you ever wonder,what is the last word that most of the people will say before they leave the world?
The story began with....
There was a very famous priest in one city.His job was listened to people deathbed testement,so he saw and heard different kinds of story from people and help them to do the last rites.As time pass,the priest getting older and he cant even walk properly.Thus,he decided to retire.One day,there was a very old women came to his house and beg him to see her husband,because her husband was going to leave the world soon and he got a lot of words want to tell the priest.The priest dont want to break the old woman heart so he went to meet the old women husband.The old man told the priest that he was very regret with what he had done for his whole life.He was a musician when he was young but because of addicted to gambling,he lost his job and cant play music anymore,thus he wishes that the God will forgive him.After a few years,the priest had passed away,before he leave the world,he wrote his last words in a paper,he said that,if the time can reverse,60% of the people in this world can become a great man..
This story tell us that,we always do something without think for the consequences,in the end,we just realised our mistake and we feel remorse for it.We cannot reverse the time,all we need to do is learn the lesson from other people and appreciate what we have =)

Smile =)

I believe that everyone agree that time pass,thing changed.Time is a excellence lecturer,it taught us a lot of lessons and made you and me become a better person.
It's almost one and a hald year I stay in Singapore.I admited that I miss home all the time and it was a tough time for me to get through with other people at the begining.The greatest trouble was the communication barrier,yet im still trying to improve my english.Now,i having training in national cardiac hospital.My trainer taught me a lot of stuff.
I learn..
How to be a sensitive person..
How to communicate with the patient..
I realised that SMILE is a powerful tool,it is the key to glue the relationship.I smile whenever I see my patient and I greet them all the time.I realised it makes them feel warm.My trainer told me that as a health care professional must always remember to smile with them and give them the personal privacy.She reminded me that how precious that life could be.Everyday,I can see difference kind of patients walk in and out of the hospital.I can see that everyone is trying so hard to survive,trying to fight with the disease what we can do,is just support our patients,love our patients and make them feel that we are here to care and help them.In contrast,I dont understand why some people still never satisfy with what they possess now?Why some people can bring themself to suicide?Why they love to complaint how terrible is their life when they are healthy enough to run and play on the field.Compare to those patients who lying on hospital bed,compare to those suffer from cancerous illness patients,compare to those kids who die from starvation,do u all think that your life worse than them?
Sometime,I feel so happy that the patients smile and say 'thankyou' with me.Althought I feel tired most of the time but I still love my attachment.Sometimes,just a small conversation can even make them feel so warm and smile..I love to see the way people smile because it is the most wonderful thing in this world..People might think that I am insane or stupid,because I smile all the time and even I got scold from other people,I will just smile and apologize to them.I even smile when I make mistake.I just believe that smile makes my life more colourful & brighten other people's day =)


A SMILE A DAY,KEEP ALL THE BAD LUCK AWAY!! TEEHEE!!

My world ♥

Everyone yearned to have their own dream life..when I was a kid,studied in kindergarden,I wish I grew up faster and got into primary school life..the moment I steped into my primary school life,I was dying for secondary school life..as I got into my secondary school life,I was thirst for college life..Now,I'm a tertiary student and I'm looking forward to become a worker and go for work everyday,no school,no assignment,no more report,no more exam and test..isn't it sounds so fantastic,is it? I guess I'm not the only one who will think for those thing,i believe everyone do too..when you got your job,you will chatter how sucks is your job and worst is your life and that is the moment you beg to retire as soon as possible. No one will even satisfy with what they having now.No matter is about the life,the job,the result for your module,friendship,relationship,marriage and etc. As time pass,you experience and learn a lot,therefore you wish to see the improvement,you will hope everything get better as you wish..for instance,when you have a very sweet relationship,but as time pass,you slowly realised he or she is not your soul mate,you started to maunder how bad is he or she behaviour and how terrible the way he or she treat you..and started to quarrel and fight,eventually say goodbye with each other..well,I presume that this is not happening to all of us..no one is alike,we really cant expect other people to have the same way as what we thought,but sometime you will find it is soo annoying with those kind of people,just because you dont like the way they behave and you expect more from he or she.The world is always like that and I learn to see the truth,the reality of the life..the more I watched,the more I heard,the more I thought..If I had a chance to choose the my life,I wish the sky in my world is black in colour,rain is rainbow in colour,stars never disappear,no transport on the road,no tall building,the field and grass are purple in colour,the moon with a smily face,the sun never appear,people are mute,all the trees are rainbow in colour,red,orange,yellow.....this is the world appear in my mind..it is existence because I went there once in my life..No one will ever feel satisfy,me either..that is the reason we lost our smile....

Is all about her-the angel without wings

As time pass,I realised the differences between the life in a village and a city. When the moment you saw and heard everything that happened around you,you will realise the personality among the crowds,the ways people interact with each other,the ways people reach the target unscrupulously.Seriously,I had fed up with those thing that I saw and heard about her..and because of her,I learn something in my life.I learn to be realistic. Please dont give me a rap on the knuckles, I am influence by the environment. Without selfishness, is hard for me to survive in this kind of harsh life. Besides that,I really dont see what is the point helping other person,in the end,no one will appreciate what you did,on the contrary,they blame everything on you..isn't that sounds very stupid?

I met an angel without wings in my life,she never fuss about anything that they did to her.She try her best to treat everyone friendly in her life.Instead of saying thankyou to her,people always blame her for everything and treat her badly. This make my heart ache. I wish I can flee her from that box,but I am too young and I cant afford to give her anything. All I can do is always stand by her side,support her and comfort her when she felt blue in her life.

Lovely angel,I will flee you from the box one day..I promise..

Miss you

Now is 2.33am,but i didnt feel tired at all..chinese new year is coming soon,but i really didnt feel excited at all and even didnt feel like it is a special day for me. Every year, i used to celebrate chinese new year wiv my family..but this time,is my first time,celebrate chinese new year without my parent at my side..is just feel like something is not right at all and some part is missing for this coming festival..
2010,is not a new starting point for me..today,I ask the most stupid question in my class..i felt so dispressing..because i cannot speak fluent english that why people tend to misunderstand what i trying to say..it really makes me feel so bad,when there is no one understand what u trying to say or mention..the moment i heard lot of people keep on whispering what does she talking about,i dont get what she wanna said,what does she mean..I just canot do anything but getting more nervous and stress..i try my best to make it clear,but still,most of my classmates cannot get what i talking about.I just feel i am so fail..and never improve at alll..almost one year already study at here,i stil facing the same obstacle..i already get used with the life being a joker...that why,when someone asking me,how r u today..my answer will always be the same.."perfectly fine!" actually,it is just a lie..for me,everyday is just the same..i just forcing myself to smile all the time..so no matter is chinese new year,valentine day,christmas or weekend,everyday is just the same for me..nothing special happen at all and no miracle happen at all..my english still very lousy,my life still very stressful...
sometime,i just felt like i wan to give up and cannot take it anymore..i really felt that this place doesnt belongs to pehrong at all...but,i knew that my mum n dad have higher expectation on me..and i should be responsible to my choice n my decision..there is no way for me to U turn anymore
I just wanna said,'dad,mum,i really very miss u..i miss home..i miss having dinner wiv u all,i miss the time we have fun together..laughing together..i miss the way u treat me when i having exam..mum..i miss u all so much..Y.Y

Love is not all around

今天看了一部爱情片，戏中的女主角是个万人迷，有不少男人都败在她的石榴裙下，女主角是个花花公主，她从来都不相信她爱的人。爱情，对她来说，只是一个游戏，你骗我，我骗你，一旦成功的得到那男孩的心，她就觉得这一场游戏不好玩了。就这样，她总是不停的换男友。也因此，她伤害了不少男孩的心。就在有一次，她同时爱上了两个男生，一个是他的前男友，而另一个则是个年少的医生。。就在她想认认真真的爱一个人的时候，她偏偏选错的对象。最终，她选择了她的前男友，只因为有·一次，她看见那医生牵着另一个女孩的手。但她永远都不知道，其实那女孩并不是那大医生的女友，而相反的，最终她选择的男孩，一直都在欺骗她。。

这故事的宗旨告诉了我，在这世界上，很多事情都是障眼法，你看的未必是真的；而真的未必能让你看得到。

就像这女孩，她看见那大医生男孩牵着其他女孩的手，就一口咬定，他们俩是情侣关系；而她前男友总是告诉她，他身边的那个女孩只是他的妹妹，其实，真正的答案她永远都不知道。

今天的日记是想告诉大家，真爱，并不是常常都出现在我们的身边，所以要好好的珍惜身边所有爱你的人，当然也包括你爱的人噢；生活，并不像童话世界般完美；生活，是残酷的。